today

i feel so good. i feel so confident for once i had such a good day handing out cvs and it seems quite promising so hopefully ill have lots of dollar soon. i really wanna go to hevy fest with the lovely liz and just have an amazing summer and having a job would top that off . i hope this feeling lasts because i am so insecure itd be nice to feel confident for once.

out with the old

today i handed out my cv in nottingham and tried something new; a middle parting with my extensions in too.
fashion show next week so excited ill actually do a proper blog at some point.
but for now hope everyone is well

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eeeeek so excited

just been asked by Rhiannon Jones aka Lady Bolshie funny the fact we have the same name but yeah. doing a fashion show for her on 7th of july i'm so fricking excited i may pee my pants. hoping i can get tickets so my best friend nat can come and be tyra and my sister can be mrs jay (L) my sister keeps telling me to apply to agencies or apply for britains next top model so maybe this is my ticket ;)

oh london is gonna be so fun this next month!

00:30

so it's early/late i'm having a grey's anatomy marathon already midway into season 2 after starting today preparing to cry(L). My beautifully strange friend ruby made a good point in her blog " you don't care but fuck you it's my documentation" blogs are a very personal thing and i feel this way completely. i love getting your comments as everyone seems to be so lovely yet if people don't enjoy my blog it doesn't bother me because it's my own thing meant for my enjoyment. i can imagine many of you feel this way too. also check out the beautiful drawins ruby does she drew the hippo in the tutu for me cause she's so random.

if i could be anyone right now it'd be meridith grey but not in season 2 or 3 or 4 except episode 17 cause her life sucks then.

from dusk til dawn

So today i just chilled until about 4 when mummy took me to boots to get my fake tan and then off to outfit for a bit of window shopping. I spent a total of 35 quid at boots got 2 different fake tans, bronzer, bronzer brush, 2 vaselines so i could get extra points, barry m nail varnish & mouthwash. Boots really know how to make me spend it was about 25 quid but i added all the small things in order to get an extra 3 quids worth of points oops!

I came across some lovely headbands in the jewellery section and fell in love with one from miss selfridge but mother said it wasnt very good against my hair (shes rather brutally honest) so we spent about 30 minutes looking for a good headband for me to buy after tossing up between about 3 i decided to go for the cheapest which can be seen in my pictures below £6 topshop which is admitedly rather pricey for a lace flower on a peice of elastic.

I spent the rest of my evening drinking bulmers pear cider watching the grand prix qualifiers & the england match we ofcourse supported usa cause frankly we don't care if england win or not also to annoy our chavy neighbours one of them paints his house like an england flag every world cup!

I forgot to mention i tried to wave my hair today but it ended up more crimped but heres my attempt.

end of an era

Finally I have finished my exams techniqually, I only have drama left which doesn't really count as an exam. I've had a varied week due to childish girls from my school. But the good news is mummy has agreed to pay for my benicassm ticket for next year!!!! I'm so excited I've wanted to go for ages. For those of you that don't know what benicassm is it is a spanish festival that has the best line ups this years includes friendly fires two door cinema club lily allen calvin harris and so many more it's kind of a holiday and festival in one. So that's the first good thing the second being good and bad today I went to retrieve my phone only to find out I'd been given a new one as my old one can't be repaired which is annoying as I don't have any contacts now. But by the end of this week ill be in london with barney for a weekend of xbox and making mega sized jelly tots before prom. I love cooking so much :) and its so fun to do with friends or whoever.

Hope you all have lovely weekends.

antics

so last night i decided to go to my friend mikes bbq so me natalie and molly made our way around his and had a few cheeky drinks. some more people came later and we had our own little group of about 7 sit around and just chat all night which was rather lovely and elliot decided to take my camera and take "indie" pictures of us so heres last night.

elliot & nat

me, some guy called dan & nat

elliot & james

excuse my horrible legs

EDIT:

My friend sabs took this picture of us all yay:

yay...

1.23 am and i'm stilll awake watching harry potter 4 whilst some pervert who lives on my road harresses me god my life is fun. if you see me on the news reportedly kidnapped you guys know who did it!

long lost

today i met half of my family i never even knew existed until a month ago. this being as my dad is half adopted on his dads side so we met his dead and my aunts etc they were the nicest people i've ever met besides barneys family. we went to the oldest pub in england for a few drinks and lunch then a little mooch around nottingham before it was time for dinner and off to the gym for dinner we sent next to the tennis courts and innevitably we ended up playing tennis me and my dad v my sister and brother and ofcourse my pissed up father and my idiot self lost. but all in all it was a lovely day however i have now become well aquired to the scouse accent yet tv liverpudlian accents are worse than a cheese greater to the face!

i have also discovered i enjoy reading and writing when i began this blog i enjoyed writing the way i did i like thinking things through and comprehending my thoughts onto paper. i did however get sucked into the fashion scene of most bloggers but entering the blog writing competition made me do what i enjoy most writing in a more me way. i may be shit at english but i enjoy writing in a way that i feel comfortable with rather than comprension writing or essays.

it's been long needed

finally i've got round to taking pictures of everything and with most of my exams out of the way i have time to blog. i will start off with my feelings of friday night.

I absolutely adore lady gaga although i don't much buy in to a lot of the theatrical scheme she's a creative genius and i understand she's a Marmite artist when the proof is such its hard to deny that she's amazing a week ago she became the only artist in the world to have seven number worldwide top 10 singles from one album beating the likes of Michael Jackson who achieved six. the support band semi precious weapons were a bunch of egotistical transvestites that were about as enjoyable as cutting your throat then sitting in vinegar. after an hour of waiting lady gaga finally came on and the set was absolutely astonishing. there was a staircase made of syringes, a broken down green car containing one of gaga's many pianos and scaffolding in the shape of a hotel with neon lights all over. this changed into a more open stage for most of the performance and that was a platform that moved about too. the whole show was the lead up to the monster ball and gagas journey there. i'd say it was the best thing i've ever seen and even my boyfriend who didn't like lady gaga now understands how amazing she really is. and of course she never fails to impress with her intriguing outfits my favourite being the satelitte dress designed by givenchy which is shown in her bad romance video. Sorry about the poor quality of some of the pictures but we started off about 3 or 4 metres away from the stage but due to heat and pain in my feet moved to the back.

Opening set/ Piano

Me & Barney enjoying the back of the arena

& this is what i wore; topshop owl dress-ebay £30, Studded court shoes-new look £20, Snake print clutch-primark £6, Polka dot titghts-primark £2

And now for the second half of this blog things i brought recentley/ in london but never uploaded.

Spot stick free from natalie works wonders No7 Eyeliner in black £3 boots

Mac viva glam gaga-£12.50 Rimmel colour show off in be bold free from rimmel website Christian Dior lipstick in fig found in mummys make up collection that she never uses

vintage heels-brick lane vintage market £10 Vivienne Westwood heels £70.40 vivienne westwood shop

Mock snake skin clutch-£6 primark, Juicy couture bag from natalie

Earrings-£4 river island Vivienne westwood necklace-£35 ebay

All saints tee but in white that barney got me £26

Ted baker purse £50

Only we can choose

My entry for we just don't know you yet @ the inky fingerfiles

The future is always ahead of us and only we can choose how far we will allow it to take us. Though it seems all the time building up to exams and interviews is the most important, it is important to know that everyday counts and whatever way we choose to look at it, at some point or another whatever you may choose to do with that moment will affect your decision for one thing or another in the future.

Although none of us know what is coming it is safe to say we should jump in to each day with caution and confidence to take out of it the best we can.

when we fail to prepare we can only expect failure in what we do.