stuck on repeat

why is the one you don't want to think of the only thing you can think of and why do we tell ourselves it's fine when we know it's not.
i'm so insecure about it all when i've told myself over and over again that i'm over it but everytime it comes up again it's clear that i'm not over it i wish it'd just go away i wish i could pretend like it never happened and not hold it against him but it's just so hard to forget.
when you get hurt so badly how do you get over it when will i get the chance to look him in the eye say i've forgotten it and really mean it.

if it's in your words then it's in your voice