i;d like a designer handbag

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lifes a bitch

I wish i was taller

I wish i was prettier

I wish i was more confident

I wish i was thinner

I wish i was more organized

I wish i knew what you were thinking

I wish i lived closer

I wish i was older

I wish everything was easier

I wish i could wear whatever i want and not feel stupid

I wish i wasn’t so self loathing

I wish i had money

I wish people wouldn’t lie

I wish i could do what i wanted with life

as much as i’d like these things i know there is no point pining for things that are never going to happen

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stuck on repeat

Brick Lane

After paying £3 in change rough trade were clearly pissed and only gave us 3/4 of our photos.
I had an overall lovely week and have discovered where all my pay checks are going to be deposited. Miu Miu is soon to be a VERY good friend of mine.

today

i feel so good. i feel so confident for once i had such a good day handing out cvs and it seems quite promising so hopefully ill have lots of dollar soon. i really wanna go to hevy fest with the lovely liz and just have an amazing summer and having a job would top that off . i hope this feeling lasts because i am so insecure itd be nice to feel confident for once.

out with the old

today i handed out my cv in nottingham and tried something new; a middle parting with my extensions in too.
fashion show next week so excited ill actually do a proper blog at some point.
but for now hope everyone is well

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eeeeek so excited

just been asked by Rhiannon Jones aka Lady Bolshie funny the fact we have the same name but yeah. doing a fashion show for her on 7th of july i'm so fricking excited i may pee my pants. hoping i can get tickets so my best friend nat can come and be tyra and my sister can be mrs jay (L) my sister keeps telling me to apply to agencies or apply for britains next top model so maybe this is my ticket ;)

oh london is gonna be so fun this next month!

00:30

so it's early/late i'm having a grey's anatomy marathon already midway into season 2 after starting today preparing to cry(L). My beautifully strange friend ruby made a good point in her blog " you don't care but fuck you it's my documentation" blogs are a very personal thing and i feel this way completely. i love getting your comments as everyone seems to be so lovely yet if people don't enjoy my blog it doesn't bother me because it's my own thing meant for my enjoyment. i can imagine many of you feel this way too. also check out the beautiful drawins ruby does she drew the hippo in the tutu for me cause she's so random.

if i could be anyone right now it'd be meridith grey but not in season 2 or 3 or 4 except episode 17 cause her life sucks then.

from dusk til dawn

So today i just chilled until about 4 when mummy took me to boots to get my fake tan and then off to outfit for a bit of window shopping. I spent a total of 35 quid at boots got 2 different fake tans, bronzer, bronzer brush, 2 vaselines so i could get extra points, barry m nail varnish & mouthwash. Boots really know how to make me spend it was about 25 quid but i added all the small things in order to get an extra 3 quids worth of points oops!

I came across some lovely headbands in the jewellery section and fell in love with one from miss selfridge but mother said it wasnt very good against my hair (shes rather brutally honest) so we spent about 30 minutes looking for a good headband for me to buy after tossing up between about 3 i decided to go for the cheapest which can be seen in my pictures below £6 topshop which is admitedly rather pricey for a lace flower on a peice of elastic.

I spent the rest of my evening drinking bulmers pear cider watching the grand prix qualifiers & the england match we ofcourse supported usa cause frankly we don't care if england win or not also to annoy our chavy neighbours one of them paints his house like an england flag every world cup!

I forgot to mention i tried to wave my hair today but it ended up more crimped but heres my attempt.

end of an era

Finally I have finished my exams techniqually, I only have drama left which doesn't really count as an exam. I've had a varied week due to childish girls from my school. But the good news is mummy has agreed to pay for my benicassm ticket for next year!!!! I'm so excited I've wanted to go for ages. For those of you that don't know what benicassm is it is a spanish festival that has the best line ups this years includes friendly fires two door cinema club lily allen calvin harris and so many more it's kind of a holiday and festival in one. So that's the first good thing the second being good and bad today I went to retrieve my phone only to find out I'd been given a new one as my old one can't be repaired which is annoying as I don't have any contacts now. But by the end of this week ill be in london with barney for a weekend of xbox and making mega sized jelly tots before prom. I love cooking so much :) and its so fun to do with friends or whoever.

Hope you all have lovely weekends.

antics

so last night i decided to go to my friend mikes bbq so me natalie and molly made our way around his and had a few cheeky drinks. some more people came later and we had our own little group of about 7 sit around and just chat all night which was rather lovely and elliot decided to take my camera and take "indie" pictures of us so heres last night.

elliot & nat

me, some guy called dan & nat

elliot & james

excuse my horrible legs

EDIT:

My friend sabs took this picture of us all yay:

yay...

1.23 am and i'm stilll awake watching harry potter 4 whilst some pervert who lives on my road harresses me god my life is fun. if you see me on the news reportedly kidnapped you guys know who did it!

long lost

today i met half of my family i never even knew existed until a month ago. this being as my dad is half adopted on his dads side so we met his dead and my aunts etc they were the nicest people i've ever met besides barneys family. we went to the oldest pub in england for a few drinks and lunch then a little mooch around nottingham before it was time for dinner and off to the gym for dinner we sent next to the tennis courts and innevitably we ended up playing tennis me and my dad v my sister and brother and ofcourse my pissed up father and my idiot self lost. but all in all it was a lovely day however i have now become well aquired to the scouse accent yet tv liverpudlian accents are worse than a cheese greater to the face!

i have also discovered i enjoy reading and writing when i began this blog i enjoyed writing the way i did i like thinking things through and comprehending my thoughts onto paper. i did however get sucked into the fashion scene of most bloggers but entering the blog writing competition made me do what i enjoy most writing in a more me way. i may be shit at english but i enjoy writing in a way that i feel comfortable with rather than comprension writing or essays.

it's been long needed

finally i've got round to taking pictures of everything and with most of my exams out of the way i have time to blog. i will start off with my feelings of friday night.

I absolutely adore lady gaga although i don't much buy in to a lot of the theatrical scheme she's a creative genius and i understand she's a Marmite artist when the proof is such its hard to deny that she's amazing a week ago she became the only artist in the world to have seven number worldwide top 10 singles from one album beating the likes of Michael Jackson who achieved six. the support band semi precious weapons were a bunch of egotistical transvestites that were about as enjoyable as cutting your throat then sitting in vinegar. after an hour of waiting lady gaga finally came on and the set was absolutely astonishing. there was a staircase made of syringes, a broken down green car containing one of gaga's many pianos and scaffolding in the shape of a hotel with neon lights all over. this changed into a more open stage for most of the performance and that was a platform that moved about too. the whole show was the lead up to the monster ball and gagas journey there. i'd say it was the best thing i've ever seen and even my boyfriend who didn't like lady gaga now understands how amazing she really is. and of course she never fails to impress with her intriguing outfits my favourite being the satelitte dress designed by givenchy which is shown in her bad romance video. Sorry about the poor quality of some of the pictures but we started off about 3 or 4 metres away from the stage but due to heat and pain in my feet moved to the back.

Opening set/ Piano

Me & Barney enjoying the back of the arena

& this is what i wore; topshop owl dress-ebay £30, Studded court shoes-new look £20, Snake print clutch-primark £6, Polka dot titghts-primark £2

And now for the second half of this blog things i brought recentley/ in london but never uploaded.

Spot stick free from natalie works wonders No7 Eyeliner in black £3 boots

Mac viva glam gaga-£12.50 Rimmel colour show off in be bold free from rimmel website Christian Dior lipstick in fig found in mummys make up collection that she never uses

vintage heels-brick lane vintage market £10 Vivienne Westwood heels £70.40 vivienne westwood shop

Mock snake skin clutch-£6 primark, Juicy couture bag from natalie

Earrings-£4 river island Vivienne westwood necklace-£35 ebay

All saints tee but in white that barney got me £26

Ted baker purse £50

Only we can choose

My entry for we just don't know you yet @ the inky fingerfiles

The future is always ahead of us and only we can choose how far we will allow it to take us. Though it seems all the time building up to exams and interviews is the most important, it is important to know that everyday counts and whatever way we choose to look at it, at some point or another whatever you may choose to do with that moment will affect your decision for one thing or another in the future.

Although none of us know what is coming it is safe to say we should jump in to each day with caution and confidence to take out of it the best we can.

when we fail to prepare we can only expect failure in what we do.

Gaga for Gaga

So may 28th is finally here and i am going to see Lady Gaga! I think she's such an amazing role model and a very talented person i am so excited i'm not however going to be lame and dress like her although my hair's white i dont much wish to be a little gaga as beautiful as she is. I still haven't decided what i'm wearing so i think major outfit hunting in my wardrobe will occur tonight sorry physics gcse but hey. Gonna do a spot of shopping before Barney gets here tomorrow and see what i can pick up.

lazy days

i had my hair cut today finally. the last time i had it cut was november as i'm too scared that they'll screw up my hair. i had to go to a different hairdressers to usual as none of the people that work at my hair dying salon are professional taught which worries me but i'm glad as a lovely man called tom cut my hair and did exactly what i wanted a was a lovely man. i will upload pictures next week along with my purchases from london last month and a few bits and bobs i've bought recentley i just can't keep up during these bloody exams.

Dear liver

although i never usually drink and when i do i never get drunk, last night we had a bbq and i ended up drinking a pint and a half of pimps and a litre of cosmopolitan. after the first 1/4 of the bottle of cosmopolitan and after the Pimms i knew i was fucked yet i felt that i had to drink the rest of the bottle or i felt bad which about half an hour later lead to me throwing up bright pink lovely..... i then continued to not be able to move or i felt as if i was going to throw up so instead i spoke to Natalie for 2 hours which was enjoyable. this friday is lady gaga and my bf wants me to get fucked i think after that lovely experience that shan't be happening.

hello beautiful

i decided to put my hair in pins last night so that it would be curly today, that it is although i look more like karen from outnumbered than anything else. i am off to town today to buy myself some liquid eyeliner and the beauty below i'm so excited i am very easily pleased. after that it's a two and a half hour drama rehearsal for the exam tomorrow and lots of revision for my two biology exams how fun is my life?

FML

so yesterday was my final day at nottingham girls high school it was a lovely day and so a group of about 30 of us went back to someones house for a little gathering by 730 my blackberyy screen had been cracked completely and i nearly cried so now i am 80 pounds out of pocket and stuck with the worlds worst phone for the next 28 days so any donations of phones would be total and utter life savers as i pay 10 quid a month for internet which will be utterly wasted. it was a lovely night despite my phone being killed although there was no sleep involved so i feel lie dying and me and natalie sat drinking jaeger bombs and tea and being laughed at for our love of tea instead of vodka (L)

The self aclaimed best actress in the world

Physics group

Ruby Bearclaw the one i'm taking with me

The one doing something completely different

Two of the nicest funniest people

The ones that are moving to other cities and countries but they'll be famous one day

I couldn't have asked for 25 better people to spend the past 5 years with.

it's been a while

i havent posted for a while mainly because i did a photoshoot for a friend on bank holiday monday and was waiting to upload those to here but i haven't recieved many of them yet as computers suck. However my friend emily leant me her copy of a cinderella story today so this made me think of all my favourite films:

1. withnail and i

2. a cinderella story

3. all the harry potters

4. hunchback of notre damn

5. pleasure land

6. sleepover

7. sex and the city

8. chasing liberty

9. pans labyrinth

10. mean girls

11. shes the man

12. he's all that

13. monster

14. the longest yard

15. angus thongs and perfect snogging

16. the little mermaid

17. both bridget jones'

18. lord of the rings

19. 500 days of summer

20. UP

21. how to train your dragon

22. the greys anatomy movie (if it is ever made hint hint)

23. alice in wonderland the original

24. camp rock

25. cadet kelly

26. hotel rwanda

27. the punisher

28. the spiderwick chronicles

and although these arent films my life would not be complete without:

1. greys anatomy

2. lipstick jungle

3. desperate housewives

4. prison break

5. keeping up with the kardashians

6. the secret life of an american teenager

i will try upload the pictures from shoot soon

F$#@~%$#@!

after saving up half of the money to buy this necklace that have wanted for about a year but it was too expensive(was £83 but went to £50 in sale) i find out they are no longer making them and are completely sold out everywhere so if anyone finds this or knows someone with it who would sell send them my way. i would literally give an organ for it. ironic how it says "you don't know what you've got til it's gone"

what's it all for

i have exams in less than a month and i have no motivation what so ever so far i've done 30 pages of biology notes and that is it. i can see me passing my exams... i am struggling to do my graphics coursework i just cannot be arsed my teacher is a dick therefore this makes me lack motivation even more and it's all so boring. at the end of the day what was this all for i am never going to be a graphic designer nor am i going to live in spain we should be allowed to pick all 10 options that way i figure pass rates would be higher as we aren't forced into things we will never succeed in. the thing is my lack of motivation also crosses with my lack of giving a shit i genuinely couldn't care less if i got a U in my Spanish gcse i am taking 4 subjects next year and need 5 at grade c and above which i know i will get a lot better i will more than likely get 10 grade c above but we shall see how spanish fairs. i cannot wait to leave school though i can get away from the bunch of pretentious stuck up daddies girls that i go to school with and the teachers that wont get off my back about one peice of homework when i have 3/3 a* so far in their subject.

excuse the rant but the current education system be in private or state is a pile of shit.

i will eventually upload my pics from london when im not being so lazy but for now, i have given in to formspring

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/rljxo

http://www.faceofbank.com/rhiannon-jones--4?ref=nf

unable to concentrate

so i'm still in london and went to the american apparel rummage sale round 1 on friday on to be waiting in line an hour and then be told the event was cancelled, there are various videos of the event on youtube as fights broke out and some wankers got arrested so thanks to 5 or 6 idiots the whole thing got closed off. however we went for round two yesterday, also just as dissapointing, we got in but everything was either horrible or xl which i am not, barney picked up a few tshirts and then we popped off town the rest of brick lane, to consolidate the disappointment of the apparel sale we found a lovely vintage market and i found 2 pairs of the most beautiful vintage shoes i've ever seen i could only afford to buy one but slightly wish i could have bought the others too. as we left brick lane i noticed a flyer for a fenchurch sample sale and got some amazing jeans after 3 hours in brick lane it was back to oxford circus to pick up apparel hoodies. so all in all it wasn't a completely awful weekend but it would have been nice not to waste a fiver on fridays travel card. ill post pictures of what i got when im home but for now its back to writing up revision notes whilst barney's at work.

oh hey london

going to London is not an unusual occurrence for me as my boyfriend lives there however this time I'm actually doing stuff yay! On friday there's an american apparel rummage sale which will be amazing as everything starts at £1 so major money to be spent. I think i'm more excited about seeing Barney get more of his tattoo and getting to finally go into aubin and wills where he works, there clothes are so beautiful, admittedly they're a bit pricey for what they are but i'd rather aubin than jack wills. after lots of shopping and a cheeky visit to brick lane it'll be 6 days of xbox and relaxing.

it's good to dream

so i've been applying to work at festivals year 1. for the experience and 2. for the money.

i can't wait to have a job so that i can save for the most beautiful things in world;

1. A second pair of viv shoes

2. A viv bag

3. house of holland tights (i cannot justify £12 tights currently)

4. an Alexander Mcqueen clutch

5. a pair of chloe shoes

6. purple acid wash american apparel hoodie

7. my owl tattoo

8. a lumix g camera

9. a macbook

10. the new adventures of old christine dvds

however for now i am going to drown my money problems in making the worlds best chocolate cake (L)

project stress...

i can only imagine that this is how those on project runway feel. stressed to the max. for product design i stupidly decided to make a bag so i am now having to hand stitch a huge bag what an idiot i am. my back feels like it may just collapse any moment. hello no sleep tonight

excuse but are you stupid...

why is it that girls feel the need to flirt with other peoples boyfriends. my boyfriend is in a band as so i get that he's going to meet girls that may fancy him but these girls seem to take the piss. one reckons she's going to be going out with him soon it's like hello i've been with him over and a year and half so good luck with that. i'm so fucking fed up with 12 year old girls arsing off him, yeah he's one of the nicest people you'll ever meet however that doesn't mean they have to talk to him 24;7 about every little thing they do its just pathetic and needy. the worst thing of all is that i can't say anything to his little stalkers because it's "unproffesional" it's bullshit i'm not even in the band and i have to act like everything is fine.

rant over.

i left my heart on the dancefloor

best video ever? i think so.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQ95z6ywcBY

beautiful,dirty,rich

so in preparation of lady gaga on friday i decided to curl my hair as due to my hair being inbetween short and long curling isn't so easy. and here was the end result.

i know that lavendar blonde

so next friday i am going to see the beautiful and amazingly talent lady gaga. I don't really care if half of the population of this earth dislike her i think she's fabulous. So i'm currently looking for something to wear, so i thought now was the time for me to get a reko dress that i have wanted ever since i saw it last year, it's so beautiful and hopefully ebay will be kind to me or my fairy god mother with give me that and a pair of vivienne westwood shoes to go with it.

excitement

even though it will be quite a while until i get a flat/house with my boyfriend i can't wait i like looking through animals for sale listings cause they're all so cute and i cannot wait to get loads of dogs and cats and preferably a huge house.
i want a shar pei as i've been told i'm not allowed a pug because they're too small and ugly:(
i'd also like a blue chow chow, they must be the cutest things i've ever seen
and then i'd like some beautiful cats and possibly a rabbit.

i really should bother

Being as my boss picks and chooses when i work i am skint. But i need to start to save in order to buy the things i both want and need.

1. Doo gro shampoo & conditioner
2. Loreal silver shampoo
3. Hair extensions so i can get a weave
4. A polka dot skirt
5. The perfect cream mac
6. My Vivienne Westwood shoes for prom
7. A cluth for prom
8. Ellie Gouldings album
9. Benefit "that gal"
10. Money for shopping in london/croydon
11. Money towards my trip to paris & disneyland

morning glory

I have become increasingly more interested in this website. I enjoy reading little bits of other peoples thoughts and the amazing outfits everyone seems to have. I think I'm far to interested in other peoples lives more than my own. I think I would rather enjoy changing lives with someone for a day I don't think I'd mind who it was but it'd be nice to see the world from another perception.

we're never far from what we know.

valentines day

so valentines day got me thinking of all the things i adore, even though i spent my valentines day throwing up yum!

1. My boyfriend and the fact I've been head over heels since the moment i met him.

2. Waking up and feeling amazing.

3. Mocha for train journeys and tea for relaxing at home.

4. The smell of givenchy play.

5. When girls i don't like get dumped.

6. Watching people grow up.

7. Grey's anatomy and they way it gets me emotional.

8. My interest in all things weird and wonderful.

9. The commitment I'm willing to put in to be a doctor.

10. Finding something lovely in the sales.

breathe for love tomorrow

a rush...

i don't tend to use this much, only when i remember. However when i do remember i enjoy writing, it seems to be a release. I'm not keen on christmas, my family aren't the best people to be around. However this year i was with my boyfriends family which was lovely. Its nice to be surrounded by happy people once in a while. I can't wait to go to college, i can't wait to see what will become of me. Sometimes i wish i knew what i was meant to do, i know what i'm good at but i don't want to do anything related to that. I must admit i am driven by money. I want to do something that will mean i can look after my family without much of a care but whether i'll enjoy it is a different matter. If only there was certainty for succession or failure i would know what to do.

I don't do new years resolutions but i definatly feel i've learnt a lot this past year. The past 16 months have changed a lot of things in my life, some good, some not so good. Somethings i am unsure as to whether they were good or bad. All i can hope is that i will continue to learn and change this year.