a rush...

i don't tend to use this much, only when i remember. However when i do remember i enjoy writing, it seems to be a release. I'm not keen on christmas, my family aren't the best people to be around. However this year i was with my boyfriends family which was lovely. Its nice to be surrounded by happy people once in a while. I can't wait to go to college, i can't wait to see what will become of me. Sometimes i wish i knew what i was meant to do, i know what i'm good at but i don't want to do anything related to that. I must admit i am driven by money. I want to do something that will mean i can look after my family without much of a care but whether i'll enjoy it is a different matter. If only there was certainty for succession or failure i would know what to do.

I don't do new years resolutions but i definatly feel i've learnt a lot this past year. The past 16 months have changed a lot of things in my life, some good, some not so good. Somethings i am unsure as to whether they were good or bad. All i can hope is that i will continue to learn and change this year.